👑 Scroll of the Crown: The Prison You Built to Protect Yourself

At first, it felt like safety.

The wall you built.

The silence you kept.

The refusal to trust again.

You called it wisdom.

Discernment.

Self-preservation.

You told yourself,

“I’ve been hurt before. I’m not going through that again.”

So you tightened the gate.

Closed your circle.

And made your heart a fortress.

But over time…

That fortress started to look like a cell.

And the very thing that protected you—started choking you.

“The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe.”

— Proverbs 29:25

You stopped trusting people.

Then slowly… you stopped trusting God.

You didn’t mean to.

But the wall you built in the name of wisdom started sounding a lot like fear in disguise.

What began as strength quietly hardened into self-preservation.

And now, you can’t always tell the difference between discernment and emotional distance.

You’ve mastered the art of “keeping it together.”

But you forgot how to let someone in.

You forgot what it means to be covered—not just hidden, but seen and safe.

“He who isolates himself seeks his own desire; he breaks out against all sound judgment.”

— Proverbs 18:1

And here’s the truth:

You can’t pray for healing while blocking every door it might walk through.

You can’t receive real love while holding on to the fear that everyone will hurt you.

And you can’t carry the crown while living like a fugitive in your own kingdom.

A King isn’t called to live caged—he’s called to live covered.

To guard his heart with truth.

To protect it with posture.

But never to bury it behind walls and call it strength.

There is a difference between guarding your heart and burying it alive.

One is Kingdom.

The other is trauma.

🪞 Crown Mirror Reflection:

1. What wall have I built that once served me—but now suffocates me?

2. Am I using “wisdom” to justify distance, avoidance, or fear?

3. What part of me is still hiding behind protection because it’s scared to be seen?

4. Where in my life am I praying for connection while simultaneously pushing people away?

5. What does it look like to tear down the wall but keep my crown firmly on?

🗝 Final Reflection:

You were never called to live behind the very fear that once saved you.

The wall served a purpose, but now it’s blocking your promise.

It helped you survive, but you weren’t created to stay in survival mode.

You were created to reign.

You weren’t meant to stay hidden.

You were meant to be covered, guarded by truth, and led by peace.

“You are a hiding place for me; you preserve me from trouble; you surround me with shouts of deliverance.”

— Psalm 32:7

So it’s time to open the gate.

To tear down what no longer serves you.

To walk free in the light

Not with your guard always up, but with God always near.

Because the King who walks in freedom is the one who leads with trust

Not in people, but in the One who never fails.

“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”

— John 8:36

The prison did its job.

Now it’s time to walk out.

Crown on.

Head high.

         Heart open.❤️

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